Things felt right for leaving the body. So I went to bed and breathed in the way that condenses consciousness, raises it into the crown centre and presses it against the membrane that covers the exit way. But the resistance of the membrane was strong and I grew tired. I relaxed my effort and went to sleep.
Then, as happens sometimes, I simply woke up outside the body. I had externalised through the centre at the front of the head instead of through the crown centre at the top.
I was in an unknown space. It was grey and completely featureless. A short distance away I saw four male figures standing in discussion. I recognised one of the men by his radiation as being the escort and instructor who frequently showed me around the astral planes, instructed me on technique and mechanics, and taught me conditioning of mind and soul. The other three men I recognised as being of the same organisation as he. They each had the same featureless silvery appearance, and each emitted a similar non-emotional no-nonsense radiation.
I stood at a respectable distance and waited for them to finish their discussion.
They stopped talking and the instructor approached me and said, “Your criticism is continuing to be a problem for yourself and for us”.
I said, “Yes I know; I am working on it.”
He said, “We have decided to provide you with an experience which we believe will assist you in overcoming the problem.”
“What do you have in mind?” I asked.
“We will insert you into the body of a criminal so that you know what its like to be one and so that you can see life through a criminal’s eyes. The one we have in mind has a long history of crime going back many lifetimes; there is no sin against God or man that he has not committed.”
I disliked the idea of being immersed into someone else’s body, so I said, “No, I wont do that.”
The instructor said, “On this occasion you have no choice.”
The four men immediately surrounded me, standing straight and in a square.
I went to leave but could not. I was rendered immobile by a force too strong to overcome.
My limbs and body were held rigid and I was made horizontal at chest level to the four men, who now stood two on each side of me. I seemed to be held in the grip of their minds.
Rigid and horizontal, with two men either side of me, I was transported through space.
All the way I protested as loudly and vehemently as I could. “This is against our arrangement. We agreed you will not override my freewill and I would have the choice to decline. We agreed that. This is a breach of agreement.”
I was furious at the instructor and his companions, and I exerted every effort to resist them but I was rigid and paralysed.
We arrived at an unknown destination, and then we started descending vertically.
With great effort I twisted my head to look down to where I was being lowered. I was descending into a dark room where I saw the body of a man lying on a bed.
As I was lowered into the criminal’s body I screamed with protest and exerted a massive effort to escape. With all my strength I threw myself forward to flee but I had already adhered within the body and it animated about me. As I threw myself forward the body sat up and lurched forward with me, my scream now coming out through the body’s vocal cords.
Horror and shock combined as I looked at the body I had entered and saw it was my own.
I wanted to vomit. I tried to escape out of the mouth but I could not. I felt truly awful.
Within a short while I realised the instructor had not betrayed me, for I had been due to return back to this my body, and I realised that I was the criminal the instructor had been referring to.
I got up and stayed up all night. In the morning I went to work exhausted, but with my head strangely clearer than before and a new outlook vaguely seeded.
The experience was shocking. For several nights I avoided sleep; having only short intermittent naps. I wanted to avoid leaving the body, and I especially wanted to avoid seeing the instructor. For some weeks I did not pray or meditate. Instead, I thought about the experience, and about myself. A criminal who in his long history had committed every sin against God and man.