I sat down beside the bed on an old pouf cushion stuffed with shredded newspaper and rested my back against the bedside draws.
Firstly, I centred my consciousness in the head. Then breathed in the way that condenses and concentrates the conscious controlling self. Then holding steady the concentrated state, I turned my awareness within upon itself, and reached with my inward awareness into my own consciousness, inward and upward to the inner upper pinnacle of consciousness, to the skylight at the ceiling of the soul – conscience. Then up through conscience, towards God.
I have been taught and have learnt that all prayer starts with repentance, which is honesty before God, is the presenting our sins to God, so as to become transparent in view of God, and receptive to God’s light, and to Truth. I did my presentations and asked forgiveness.
Along with my sins I took up with me the sins of others so that they could be forgiven too, for I have been taught and have learnt that God’s forgiveness is not suited to tiny tasks.
After repentance and forgiveness I started my prayers. Keeping my conscious self centred in the head, my outward awareness aware of my surroundings, and my inward awareness continuing to reach inward and upward, to and through conscience towards God.
With hands together in front of heart, from my consciousness in the head I reached in two directions at once, both inward and upward to and through conscience to God, and downward and outward through heart to others. I drew my breath down from within and above, from God, and breathed outward through heart to others. Together with this flow of breath I combine the love wish – the heartfelt wish that suffering be minimal as lessons be learned – that is the quality of love. So breathing in God’s love, and breathing out God’s love to others.
Prayer and love work together; this love does not work without prayer, for love is the outflow of God. The energy of love combines with the breath, and the love flows into the soul from above and flows outward through the heart, and does so with the breath. Breath is the handle by which we move energy. When we combine will and thought and breath, we have a potent mix, with all manner of potential.
I may direct the love wish to certain people or persons, but include all people too. And if sending forgiveness, which is love regardless, or love directed to what we find distasteful, for a particular person then always for all other people too, because that is the nature of love. God’s love is not suited to tiny tasks. And if we would attune our heart to accommodate God’s love, then our heart may be specific but must also be all inclusive.
Sometimes prayer tunes and primes the psychological system, putting us in such a state that we are able to leave the body, or that makes us able to perform abilities that otherwise we might not be able to. Part 2 of this article recounts one of those occasions.