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Everything has form, quality and function. Or put another way, everything has shape or boundaries to its existence, and has qualities of its energy or substance, and has purpose or interaction with other things. All things can be examined according to their form, quality and function.
That the human physical body or physical nature exists and has form, quality and function, is recognised and obvious. That the emotional nature, the mental nature and consciousness exist and each have quality and function, is well recognised. What is not well recognised is that the mental and emotional natures and consciousness itself each have form as well, that they are bodies of a kind too. These subtle bodies of emotional and mental substance or energy intermesh and interact with each other and with the physical body.
As defined on this blog, the three terms, soul, consciousness and intelligence, refer to the same item. The difference between them being largely referential, that is, the different terms are used in relation to context or to better suit the surrounding concepts being discussed.
To obtain perspective, being the accurate perception of all things in their proportion and importance to each other and to our self, is the most common task for humans to do in life, and the most shared task that humans are involved in.
There is truth and falsity. They each have their own nature, and have a relationship to each other.
Understanding is layered.
The true opposition to good is not apparent evil but apparent good.
Worse than the bad are those who use the bad, who manipulate them to their action, and who act through them.
Of the good and the evil, there are the smart and the dumb. The dumb are barely good or evil, but the smart may be very good or very evil, and the most good and most evil are the most intelligent of all.
In a society that values goodness, kindness and caring, evil wins no favours and gains no support by displaying itself as it is, so it displays itself as good, kind and caring.
The worst of the worst portray themselves as the best.
Where the best seem to be, the worst are found too.
Goodness cannot progress without apparent goodness to compete with. Sincerity needs insincerity, as one side of a coin needs the other.
…that great battle between desire and better judgement, from which all other battles stem…
The key to listening is wanting to hear. Nothing else needs to be known about the subject.
Contemplation is almost a forgotten art. Let’s bring it back to life. Practice it, and encourage others to practice it.
To consciously leave the body, one must have a reason to do so. Research and service are the only two legitimate reasons for leaving the body. And each in their highest sense becomes the other.
The way out is within.
There is far more to see when out of the body than the few myriad of astral planes that circumvent the earth.
Whether animal or plant, distinguish between the life and the body that the life occupies. See the two and recognise the difference.
All bodies are dead bodies; it’s just that some are animated.
Living on Earth as a human is to be involved in a type of game, a serious game but still a game, and the object of the game is not to win but to learn.
Freewill is the means by which we learn and grow.
If you do not love someone’s freewill, then you do not love them at all, for freewill is what they are, and love is for freewill.
Love is the heartfelt wish that others learn and grow with a minimum of suffering.
Love is for freewill; wisdom comes of freewill.
Forgive yourself, so many say, as if it can be done. A soul can accept itself, but it cannot forgive itself, for forgiveness flows outward not back upon itself. But a soul can forgive other souls, and in so doing is forgiven by forgiveness flowing through itself to others. Also, a soul may ask for and receive forgiveness from God, and from a son or daughter of God. And the same with love as for forgiveness.
Goodness counts for nothing if it’s weak.
Strength counts for nothing without goodness.
Consciousness is as pervasive as existence.
The enemies of truth are not so much the liars, as those who claim and preach that there is no truth, only personal opinion and perception.
Truth is the ultimate victor. When all attacks upon it have exhausted themselves and the smoke clears, there stands truth, as strong as before.
A generalisation is a recognisable pattern of similarity within a majority. There must be exceptions to it, or it could not be a pattern and would not be a generalisation, it would be a uniformity.
To generalise is to observe a pattern of similarity within a majority. It requires the ability to discriminate, that is, to discern not just the odd ones out but also the subtler differences between those of the majority that are similar. This ability to discriminate and generalise is intelligence, and is the basis of IQ testing, which measures the fineness to which it can be performed. It is the recognition of relationships, close and distant, in any medium. And from this comes creativity and the ability to solve problems.
To generalise is to discriminate; both are the same ability, the recognition of relationships. And not to exercise this ability is to not exercise intelligence; is to be unconscious. And to exercise this ability towards finer precision and broader scope is to refine and expand the intelligence.
When we combine will and thought and breath, we have a potent mix, with all manner of potential.
High on a level of self in man lies God.
Kindness is not withholding any good that we can do for others.
Chivalry is a kind of helpfulness that can only come from strength.
The selfish, weak and cunning easily make puppets of those who are helpful, strong and naïve. Chivalry must be awake and discerning, self initiated and self directed.
Desire to control and oppress others is what drives political correctness, and fear is what complies with it. Political correctness has nothing to do with consideration for others – that is a false front. Political correctness is all intimidation, fear and hypocrisy.
Pretending to be offended is the oldest trick in the book for silencing and oppressing good but weak people, and is the commonest excuse used to justify hatred and hostilities against them.
I dislike seeing good but weak people trying not to offend bullies by complying with their demands on how to behave and speak, and deluding themselves that they are being considerate of others when in reality they are just scared, weak charactered and giving in to intimidation and oppression. I especially dislike seeing men do it.
Political correctness is a manifested evil. It is a suppression of freewill, free thought, free intellect.
It is where the values are perceived, judged and stored, that the real work is done, and on which rides the personality with all its mental, emotional and behavioural inclinations. The storage place for the dearest and strongest values is of course the heart, and remodelling the heart is a process psychology is yet to understand.
Of all the fear that is claimed, there is a lot less.
Of all the fear that is denied, there is a lot more.
On their surface the martial arts are fighting systems, but underneath they offer a unique form of personal and spiritual growth which the defenceless can never know.
Know yourself and know your opponent, and know who is who.
If you do not use your martial training to make yourself a better person, then your martial training will make you a worse person.
A man’s only shield, his only true defence, is the rightness of his actions.
Vagueness, like precision, usually has purpose.
Belief and disbelief are two sides of the same mindset. A belief in one thing is a disbelief in the opposite.
To doubt is healthy, and to be certain is healthy too, each in their place, for the health is in the knowing what to doubt and of what to be certain.
There are three types of madness:
• Individual madness
• Mutual madness
• Collective madness
Madness is contagious through unhealthy interpersonal dynamics.
Loving disengagement cures unhealthy interpersonal dynamics.
Conscience is the highest sense within our self of what is good and right to do, by others.
Conscience is not a psychological construct but an organ in the soul.
Conscience is like a translucent skylight at the inner upper pinnacle of consciousness.
Conscience is reflected in emotion, like the sun in water, upside down, diffused, and not the real item. Just because something feels good and right, does not mean it is.
When we know the effect upon others of what we do, and we do it anyway, then we intend the effect, or at least we don’t mind the effect.
Violence by proxy is the use of violence by others, through active or passive persuasion. And passive persuasion can be as subtle as taking advantage and holding expectations.
All things that exist, no matter how structured or intangible, how material or energetic, have three primary attributes of their nature, being form, quality and function. And all things can be defined, described and studied from each and all of these three primary attributes.
Its form is its outer aspect, its shape.
Its quality is its inner aspect, its substance.
Its function is how it interacts with other things, its purpose.
We live in a fractal existence, where all things replicate and are replications in their form, quality and function of things above, below, within and without of themselves, to the extent that dimensions and the nature of the matter in dimensions enables.
There are many laws of reality, all ultimately harmonious with each other. One law is the Law of Correspondences. All around us and within us, within all things and between all things, great and small, from most structured and material to most intangible and energetic, are correspondences of everything to everything else, and between all things singular and things collective. And this in the three attributes of all things, structure, quality and function.
Seeing the correspondences in all things, reality makes sense.
Understanding follows acceptance. To understand something, first accept it. Acceptance is the ability to face things as they are.
Intelligence must be stronger than emotion.
Knowledge, experience, proof, are interchangeable terms.
Information is not knowledge, it is only information.
We do not know something just because we’ve read it or because someone tells us it is so; we only know it when we’ve seen it, when we’ve done it and we’ve been it. We only know it when it has become our self.
What we are is what we know; all else is conjecture.
At best, information provides guidelines to truth, to then be individually experienced and verified. At worst, information provides misleading guidelines that lead away from truth.
Although truth is vast and encompasses all existence and all that is and was and is to be, the way to truth can seem minutely narrow, due to the availability of infinite lies for every single truth.
Your relationship to truth and love is the only relationship that matters. If you look after that relationship then all your other relationships will look after themselves.
No one is illogical, but not understanding their motive and objective can make them seem so.
That which you do not forgive in someone else, the equal of that very thing you will commit yourself, but for what you think is a different reason.
All life and all events proceed to God. This is my only expectation and my only satisfaction.
The head understands, the heart opens, the will directs. These three work together in facilitation of love.
A picture tells a thousand words, a symbol even more.
There will come a time when symbolism is recognised as being as much a universal language as music and mathematics, and as much a science as physics. At present we have little or no realisation of the existence of the science of symbolism; we are like the Australian Aborigine prior to white settlement with no realisation of the existence of mathematics and of what mathematics can enable. As the Aborigine could only count one, two, many and many-many, so too, we are as primitive in our understanding and use of symbols. The science of symbolism and all that it will enable, is hopefully ahead of us.
Homosexuality should be allowed but it should not be encouraged i.e. by making it sacrosanct – beyond criticism.
Nothing should be sacrosanct, that is, beyond critical thought. To hold something, anything, beyond critical thought is to tread down upon and crush the human mind.
Knowledge must be integrated, ordered, as reality is ordered, with all facts accurately arranged and connected, or else we cannot think realistically.
True knowledge reflects reality.
Eventually, our mind should replicate reality.
Leadership is nothing more than the ability to do what has to be done and to do it under pressure. The person who has this ability will be followed by others, whether he intends to lead them or not, and no amount of leadership training will make a leader out of someone who does not have this ability.
Good individuals make good teams, not visa versa.
We all possess basic intelligence, and know and foresee effect of our actions. The known effect of what we do is the reason why we do it. Effect indicates both prior motive and intended objective, which together are intent or will.
Intent leads to and is equal to action, and action leads to and is equal to effect.
In short, energetically, effect equals intent; manifestly, effect reveals intent; observationally, effect suggests intent.
The only right that exists is the right of every soul to be created entire, with the potential to become perfect, all else is freewill.
To believe in one’s own intelligence while believing there is no intelligence behind all existence is rich egotism.
Some people thrive on the jealousy of others towards themselves.
The laws of physics are the laws of mind.
To those who are wired with the English language. If you would understand the Law of Karma then do not study it, instead, study the Law of Consequence. Why bewilder yourself by using foreign words to study a subject when you have words in your own language with which you are deeply wired and which make the subject largely self explanatory?
There is freewill, and everything else is consequence.
Understanding is knowing what stands under.
That which stands under is freewill.
Freewill is that which stands under and that which understands. Freewill is the question and the answer.
The reason why anyone does anything is freewill, the rest is details.
Humility begins with self assessment – honest self assessment – and extends to honest portrayal.
Self assessment requires that we distinguish between three things:
1. What we are,
2. What we like to think we are,
3. And what we know we aught to be.
Tension in the head can be eliminated by shifting the attention to the heart.
Value truth above all else, and from this value comes the quality of honesty, which is clarity of mind and the ability to see things as they are. And the resultant inflow is truth-fullness.
Value the great idea of freewill and its potential to learn, and from this value comes the quality of responsibility, which is constant attention upon one’s own freewill, and understanding of the freewill of others. And the resultant inflow is insight.
Value the welfare of others on their freewill journey, and from this value comes the quality of consideration for others. And the resultant inflow is love, and its subsidiaries.
These three values or priorities are those that correspond with the triune nature of the human soul, being awareness of self and surroundings, freewill, and the ability to impart energy. These three values, the qualities of character they induce, and the energies they invoke, provide …
Clear the mind with honesty.
Clear the heart with love.
An apology alleviates hurt, and forgiveness eliminates it completely.
Where there is forgiveness there is no hurt.
The only devil we need be concerned about is that part of our self that would have us disobey our conscience.
Anonymity protects charity from vanity.
Secrecy protects knowledge from irresponsibility.
Warning: Seek virtue before knowledge, purity before ability.
That we take our knowledge with us is my greatest joy and greatest sorrow.
Consideration for others, good manners and sincerity, do not need to be politically correct. Besides, political correctness and sincerity are mostly incompatible.
The disease of non-western societies is corruption.
The disease of western societies is hypocrisy.
Feminists and most psychologists and counselors promote victimhood while calling it empowerment. They manipulate people’s attitudes, mostly women’s, from being passive victims to being active victims, their emotions from being energy draining emotions to being energising emotions, and they think that is an improvement. But positive or energetic victimhood is no healthier than negative or depressed victimhood. They do not realise that freedom from victimhood and true empowerment comes with the realisation that one has never been a victim and never can be. I speak of course of the soul, which cannot be harmed except by its own attitude.
The apex predator on this planet is the victim industry. It is the tyrannosaurus rex of current times. It takes advantage of, exacerbates and induces people’s weaknesses, then feeds on them in every way it can, reducing their life potential.
The following are ideas that groomers and manipulators say so as to empty others of their sense of truth and right and wrong, to lull them into feeling falsely safe, and thus to own them:
“This is a safe space. What we talk about here is only between us”.
“There is no such thing as truth, only different people’s perceptions”.
“There is no right or wrong, that is only people’s judgement values”.
Users of such phrases are deceivers, consciously or themselves deceived.
Truth exists, and so does right and wrong, and there is no place on Earth that is safe. Let no one con you out of your belief in truth, your sense of right and wrong, or your individual responsibility for yourself and towards others.
The victim industry views society as a farm upon which it sows, grows and reaps the produce upon which it feeds — victims.
Don’t fall victim to the victim industry or the victim mentality.
Winning the victim status or offended status does not put one in the right. It is a false prize, of false value, not worth competing for.
Let those who so badly want it, have the victim prize, let them be offended – you cannot stop them anyway – and let them see who is more responsible, stronger, mature.
In reality, we are each our own worst enemy. We do ourselves more harm than anyone else can possibly do to us.
Not being a victim is not in self defence, nor in a defiant attitude, it is in realisation of the truth.
The victim minded habitually orchestrate their own victimhood. In their day to day living, in conscious and unconscious ways, and according to their preferences, they set up against themselves circumstances, situations, accidents, assaults, mistreatment by others, afflictions, infections, grievances, losses, all manner of limitations to perpetuate their sense of confinement, to protect themselves from expanded responsibility for their own lives, and to draw from others emotional vitality and other supports and gains. Theirs is a false security.
In all the universe there is no greater burden than the burden of freewill. No wonder so many would rather deny its existence.
Freewill with its inherent individual responsibility is the great weight upon every individual. It is the thing most hated in the world, the thing that many will do anything to deny, to avoid, and to destroy even the idea of.
Within freewill is the great hope, the salvation of the individual and of humanity.
There is nature and there is nurture, and between those two is individual freewill with responsibility.
Who on Earth has learnt to wield their freewill wisely?
Those who do not accept and understand freewill, and who try to be altruistic towards others, can do none other than make excuses for them.
Hold on to truth for all its worth, for truth is paramount, truth is reality, truth is sanity.
Extract the lesson from the experience.
The greatest lesson currently being learnt from the internet is the difference between information and knowledge.
Clear the mind with honesty.
Clear the heart with love.
How can women be equal with men, when men are not equal with each other?
Who do feminists want to be equal with, the men above them in wealth, status and power, or the men below them in wealth, status and power? For the greatest and least are men.
Women are leptokurtic in comparison to men. That is how nature works. It cannot be otherwise.
There is no need for feminism, just need for love, forgiveness and thankfulness between men and women.
Whenever they are tested against each other, nature defeats feminism.
We are all equal (1) in the creation of our souls and our potential to become perfect, and (2) in the love of God, and (3) under universal law, but in all other respects we are different. Rejecting this true and only equality, while enforcing a superficial social equality where there naturally is none, is an impossible acquirement and where it has attempted to be enforced has always resulted in mass murder and social oppression.
Spiritual people don’t get offended, and don’t kowtow to those who do get offended, and don’t support their being offended, because being offended is not a virtue, its a weakness.
The only advantage in taking offence is to gain power and control over kind people who don’t want to offend. And what sort of person/s aspire to that sort of advantage?
When political correctness has run its course and all its lessons learnt, then the land of individual accountability will be re-conquered, and governed more wisely than it was before.
It is not healthy to rage against every seeming injustice around us. As righteous as doing so might feel, it leads to madness. As an individual though, we can, quite safely, keep watch on our self and endeavour to be fair and just towards others.
Prime numbers are whole numbers, the rest are fractions and local.
Something the nature worshiping spiritual-but-not-religious people cannot comprehend is that all the faeries are Christian, and in the name of and for the sake of Christ they are obedient to man.
Truth is everlasting; it is not found in fashionable ideas of left and right.
True love Vs Emotional love:
For those who wish to serve the race, it s important to live for other’s sake. Not for their physical-emotional satisfactions, but for the development and growth of their freewilled soul.
There are no cycles, only spirals or helices, for nothing is in the same place when it comes around again, but is a little further forward. And spirals turn on greater spirals.
Circles are just stationary and artificial cross section images (pertaining to this seeming solid world) of spirals which are in motion and real.
In the great reality, no circle ever completes itself, but ramps up and continually overlaps itself in the direction of its circling, and onward at a right angle to its circling in the direction of its overlapping, which direction is turning and overlapping itself too, and also moving onward in the direction of its overlapping, so all circles are spirals riding and turning on and around each other, no circumference completing itself and every radius advancing on its spindle, which is why pi is an irrational and infinite number.
We are each awareness of self and surroundings, with conscience and freewill; a unit of life connected to God.
I, here, now, am.
Put aside preference, just observe, and see things as they are.
Stress results from an incorrect attitude to our circumstances. Let stress be a signal to assess and adjust our attitude.
We may consider stress to be a reminder or prompt to practice self analysis and to improve our attitude to our circumstances, from which will follow our better management of the task at hand.
There are three types of conflict:
• Those conflicts that we can avoid and which are best avoided.
• Those conflicts that land upon us and which we cannot avoid.
• Those conflicts that we can avoid but whether we should avoid them or not is questionable.
Every man seeks inner peace, therefore let your conscience be your guide, for within your conscience you hear the voice of your true self, and there is no finer peace than to be at peace with your self.
Each of us is like a pseudopod.
If we made no mistakes in life, if we did everything right, then we would be no wiser at our life’s end than we were at its beginning; we would leave no wiser than we arrived.
Irrelevant excuses are incompatible with responsibility, and with spirituality
An armed populace is a sensible nation’s best defence, and a sure fire guarantee of a fair and democratic government.
When one skill rides upon another skill, which rides upon another, which rides upon another, then one must learn one skill at a time in their natural sequence of progression.
At a given time, that anyone can do anything, is not true. That anyone can do something, is true.
Everything is a trade-off; everything is an exchange.
A troublesome habit is not something to be given up, but something to be exchanged for something better.
Don’t argue with someone if you don’t know what they are talking about.
Understand before you criticise.
Being liked by others does not indicate you are a good person. And being disliked by others does not indicate you are a bad person.
There are no concessions on Earth, no concessions for anyone.
There is reality, and emotional reactions to it. And there is realism and emotionalism. Decide which you favour and with which you stand.
Dreams are memories of memories.
The idea of equal rights and equal opportunity cannot be made to fit with economic and material reality.
But equal accountability can.
The only social equality possible is equal accountability. Feminists do not demand equal accountability because they do not want it. To a feminist, equal accountability is a scary thing.
When there are feminists marching in the streets demanding equal accountability to men, I may well be marching with them. That will not happen though, for they will not be feminists as we know them today. They will be the kind, sensible and responsible women of the future.
Watch for those whose goodness is driven by hatred. It is not goodness at all. Just hatred dressed that way.
Life is a series of trade-offs. Underlying this necessity is the great Law of Incompatibility.
Value truth above all else and come to see it for yourself.
Values are subject to our judgement of what is most important. Weigh things up, assess the comparative importance and priority of things, and do so frequently. Evolve your spectrum of values towards reality and evolve yourself towards truth.
There is an order to things. The order is in their making and their coming from each other, and in their arrangement and priority. A man’s values are brought into conflict with reality, until he matches his values with universal order. Then he sees things as they are.
In all the fields of human knowledge there is nothing so complex that it cannot be explained in simple words and terms by those who understand it.
Society is an apparition that arises from a collection of individuals, like an overall hue that we see when we view a collection of distant indiscernible details and colours. Government is the solidification of the apparition of society, a focal point where peer pressure, collective attitudes and preferences solidify into legislation and material force, and come back as a form of consequence upon the collective of individuals.
Individuals are not products of their society, as the victim industry and agents of irresponsibility preach. Rather, societies are the product of individuals, and governments are a product of societies, in that order.
Something I dislike very much is fashion — fashion in clothes, in speech, in opinion, in likes and dislikes, in thought, in anything. Fashion is socially enforced irrational conformity. It is so stifling on people. Fortunately though, I am reasonably skilled at avoiding fashion, at least as much as I need to be, to be true to truth.
We tend to find our self where we need to be, to learn what we need to know, and to do what we need to do.
Widen your scope of perception.
The sense of grief is caused by the heart being at discord with its own echo.
Ignore more things. Be all-aware but sensibly selective about engagement.
Have a good day, and if it’s not a good day have a good attitude.
It is not how you die that matters, but how you live.
Fear no truth.
It is a good time, our fifties. We are wiser that we’ve ever been, even if as smart as we’ll ever be.
It is often said that life is a learning experience, and it is, but furthermore, life is a realisation process.
Do not love him because you pity him;
Nor because you admire his achievements (his personality);
Nor because you understand his motives;
But love him because he is your brother man.
Do not forgive him because of sins you see within him;
Nor because of sins he has confessed to you;
Nor because he is a slower man than you;
But forgive him because he wears upon his forehead the cross of freewill.
(…because he carries in his soul the burden of freewill.)
(…because he carries on his shoulders the burden/cross of free choice/freewill.)
Category Archives: 1990s out-of-body experiences
I was seated in a classroom with other students, towards the rear of the room. From outside the room, down the corridor in another classroom, came the noise and energy of collective excitement and elation. The noise and energy came into our classroom and stirred the members of my … Continue reading
What are rights? …I will find out. I maintained external situational awareness while simultaneously reaching inward with internal awareness to the station of freewill. While continuing to maintain outward awareness I reached further inward, within, through and above the station … Continue reading
It was 1999 and the drought was several years in. Most of the regional lakes were low or bone dry. I drove out to one of the nearby lakes and saw it was very low. The water was several hundred yards … Continue reading
After the body went to sleep I was drawn down to the gravel flat in front of the property’s two farm houses where the cars and tractor turn around. It was a dark night and starry sky. All around was pastureland and the … Continue reading
I wanted to know more about music, its physics, its origins, and its uses. Over several excursions out of the body, both escorted and unescorted, I learned some things about music that I did not imagine could be possible beforehand.
Early 1990s. A question had been on my mind for some time. It was the middle of the night. After having slept soundly for several hours, the body was still sleeping, its muscles flaccid and lips puffing with each exhalation, but I was aware, awake … Continue reading
The year was 1990, and one year previously I had made a decision not to read books, newspapers or magazines, or anything that was not required for my employment. Nor would I listen to the radio at home or when … Continue reading
Things felt right for leaving the body. So I went to bed and breathed in the way that condenses consciousness, raises it into the crown centre and presses it against the membrane that covers the exit way. But the resistance of the membrane was strong and … Continue reading
I externalised from the sleeping body and stood beside the bed. I saw the escort to my right. He instructed me to, “Stand and watch”. My lessons often commenced with such a command but this time he stated it more … Continue reading
Early 1990s. I externalised from the sleeping physical body. The anonymous escort stood nearby like a statue. He indicated he had a lesson for me if I would like to accompany him. We went up through the layers of the astral planes … Continue reading
I wanted to see more places where people go after death, preferably the extreme and peripheral places. I decided to go to a plane where violent criminals go such as outlaw motor cycle gangsters. The escort assisted me in finding such … Continue reading
It was about 1990. Leaving the body was becoming familiar to me, both at night during sleep and while awake during meditation. I wanted to see where dead people go and how they live. I waited for an evening when I felt things were internally suitable … Continue reading
1991 I walked up the grassy hill to do my prayers. It was dusk, winter and cold. I sat on the grass with the forest behind me and green hills before me. I looked across the valley, softened the eyes, full … Continue reading
It was a spring evening about the year nineteen ninety. My wife and our German Sheppard dog and black cat went for one of our evening walks across the paddocks. We sat down on a hillside overlooking a small dam … Continue reading